To Give Up On A Dream

To give up on a dream is absolutely heartbreaking and to give up on a lifelong dream is earth shattering. To not remember a time that I didn't have this dream and feeling my heart give up hope has paralyzed me for the last three days. I feel like I'm gasping for air and taking in nothing but water. 

To delete my apps, my trackers, my calendars and planners.... to unsubscribe from countless emails... to throw away countless items and tools.... all tied to my dream... now just mocking images that I can almost hear snickering. 

This isn't a dream that gets replaced, replenished or revamped... this dream either happens or it doesn't. 

I'm giving up hope and I'm giving up on my dream. 

To give up on a dream this big changes everything...